Other half,

Hey, ive been lonely for consecutive days now. I hope youre doing fine and okay. I am feeling that you dont feel okay today. I am praying for you. 😊

Please dont be so attached with someone whos not just for you. it may be hard for the both of you. Please stop crying for the wrong ones. They are not just meant to stay in your life for a lifetime. But I am. And I am willing to love and stay with you even if I dont even know if ive seen you already. I love you. And i will love you always. I am praying for you and for the both of us always. Im praying that we will meet each other at the time that we both know how to handle love the way we want and need it to be. Im praying with you always. I hope you also do. 😀

Dear whoever you are,

Thank you for arriving safely. Thank you for looking for me. Thank you for seeing me beyond the oceans of people who seems to have no flaws at all. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. 

I just wanna say, that ive already been praying for you since the time that ive realized that i also want a God fearing man who would be with me for the rest of my life time here on earth. And i thank you for arriving right in front of me, at the right place and at the right time (well, its God’s perfect time). And i’ll thank God for giving me you, always and forever. We may not have a perfect relationship, but i promise to keep the covenant that we have with the Lord, I promise to hold on to the things that makes me fall in love with you each and everyday. I promise to love you more even if it is inconvenient for me to love. I promise to stay and love you unconditionally. I’m looking forward in growing with you, not just physically but, to grow more in our faith. Im really excited to have a comrade in every struggles and challenges I and you will be facing in the near future. Ive prayed for you. I love you and I will wait for you, even if it takes a million years(kidding!). Dont keep me waiting, I might settle with someone who isnt really for me or I might get bored so much  that i managed to settle with someone whom i dont really love. Take your time fixing yourself, but dont keep me waiting forever. I love you. And I thank God for you.😊

Coz heres the deal, if you still continue to hold on to the things that wasnt meant for you from the beggining God will make His own way to show you that it is not for you even if it does break your heart into pieces, if this would be the only way to get you closer to what He is saving for you. Even if it hurt. Even if it does break you into tiny pieces. He will do that. (matigas kasi ulo mo)  He will break you just so He can make make you into a new and strong person He want you to be. Sometimes, He allow us to be broken just for Him to heal and make us as bold as new. 😊

So, stop holding on to the things that wasnt really for. Theres something or someone better than what you want. This is something or someone He want you to have and thats worth waiting for. 😊

Isang tinig na namumutawi. Isang lungkot na hindi matutumbasan. Kinakain ang bawat laman. Hinihimay ang bawat alaalang nilalaman ng puso at utak nitong hinahagkan. Hinahagkan ng kalungkutan at karimlan. Gustong kumawala ngunit pilit na niyayapos. Pilit na hinahagkan, hanggang s ikay hindi na makahinga. Tanging patak na lamang ng luha sa iyong mga mata ang mababakas sa kalungkutan na bumabalot sa buong sistema. Walang sinumang makakarinig ng sigaw ng paghingi ng tulong na hindi maisa tinig. Walang makakaintindi, dahil na rin sa ngiti sa iyong mga labi n pilit ipinapakita sa lahat sapagkat natatakot sa bawat sasabihin ng mga taong nakapaligid. Ikaw. Ikaw na duwag. Ikaw na takot ipakita sa lahat kung gaano ka binabalot ng lungkot at karimlan. Sana ay makaya mong umahon sa lugar kung nasasaan ka. 

A star. My almost star.

You dont need to say a word for me to realize that youre a star. Your presence and existence says it all. Your words and actions shows it all. That you will always be star, but will never ever be my star.

Akala ko pwede. Akala ko talaga. Pinaramdam mo din kasi na pwede. Na okay. Na baka. Gusto kong saluduhan ang sarili ko dahil nagawa kong tiisin at saluhin lahat ng kakapalan ng mukha. Lahat ng oras na nilaan ko sayo. Lahat ng salitang sinabi ko sayo. Mabuti na lang at hindi ko din nagawang umamin sayo, na oo nahuhulog na din ako. Hindi ako manhid para hindi ko maramdaman na nahulog kana din at gusto kong umamin. Pero wala. Naunahan ka ng kaba. Naunahan ka ng takot. Takot dahil baka may maapakan ka. Takot dahil alam mong may nauna na. Takot dahil hindi mo alam kung anong isasagot ko. Tinatanong ko din ang sarili ko kung sakaling nabuo mo o nasabi mo ng buo ang mga salitang hirap na hirap lumabas sayo. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong isasagot ko. Dahil alam ko na kahit tayo ang laging mgakadama. Alam ko na mahal mo pa din siya. Alam ko na siya ang laging laman ng isip mo. Alam ko na hindi ko siya mahihigitan. Alam ko na mahal mo ako, pero hindi kayang tumbasan ng pagmamahal na yun ang pagmamahal mo sakanya. Alam ko sa sarili ko na naging panakip butas mo lang ako. Alam kong alam mo din yun. Kaya nga itinaboy mo ako palayo dahil alam kong naaawa ka na din at nagiguity sa ginagawa mo. Mas naging masakit nga lang nung kailangan mong mamili sa aming dalawa, na kahit alam kong siya ang pipiliin mo, hinihiling ko pa din piliin mo ako. Dun ko mas na realize, n hindi mo nga ako mahal.  Nakatulong din yun para magising ako sa katotohanang mas mahal mo siya at hindi nun kayang tumabasan yung pagmamahal n binibigay mo sakin habang wala siya. Nakakabobo lang, dahil feeling ko nagsayang na naman ako ng oras sa taong hindi para sakin na sana yung oras na yun ay nilaaan ko na para mas maging okay at mabuti pa. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin sayo. Pero hindi ko alam kung saan sisimulan. Hindi ko alam kung paano simulan. Hindi kita magawang sisihin dahil alam kong choice ko din to. Pinili ko ding magpakatanga sa taong alam kong hindi pa tapis mag mahal ng iba. Pinili ko ding mahalin ka. Pinili kong maging tanga. Pinili kong maging balikat lang. Ganun na siguro talaga ang papel ko. Ang maging panakip butas lang at hindi ang mahalin. 😊😂

I’ve been thinking that the time we have to be single,

Is really the time we have to get good at being alone.

But, how good at being alone do we really want to be?

Isnt there a danger that you’ll get so good at being single, so set in your ways that you’ll miss out the chance to be with somebody great?

Some people take baby steps to settle down.

Some people refuse to settle at all.

Sometimes, it’s not statistics. 

It’s just chemistry.

And sometimes, just because it is over, doesn’t mean the love ends.

The thing about being single is, you should cherish it.

Because, in a week, or a lifetime, of being alone, you may only get one moment.

One moment when you’re not tied up in a relationship with anyone.

A parent, a pet, a sibling, a friend.

One moment, when you stand on your own.

Really, truly single.

And then, its gone.

Hanggang kelan mo ba siya kayang pagsilbihan? Is it only when wr received the abundance of His mercy, blrssings, and greatness? Aside from recognizing His metcy and blessing, ad young as we are, msy we also recognize our sufferibg as mercy and bkessing and a gift frim him that we might be able to strengthen and deepen our faith by this suffering and struggles that we have or that we will encounter.

Sa pag aakalang mabubuo mo ako at sa pag aakalang mabubuo din kita. 

Pinili nating maging isa.

Ngunit itoy mali pala

Hindi pala natin kayang bumuo ng iba, kung tayo mismo ay wasak pa.

Akala ko kaya ko na

Akala ko din kaya mo na

Akala ko kaya na natin

Akala lang pala.

Hindi pa pala natin kayang ibigay sa isat isa ang kaisa isang bagay na wala pa tayo. 

Hindi pa tayo buo.

Nakakadurog ka.

Shet.kung gaano kita kamahal ganun mo din siya minamahal. Kung gaano ko gustong ibigay sayo ang lahat ganun ka din sakanya. Kung gaano ko gustong ibalik yung mga panahaong okay pa tayo,mga panahong kaya pa nating mag usap at timawa ng magkasama ganun mo din hinihiling sa Panginoon na ibalik siya sayo para mas ingatan siya at mas iparamdam sakanya yung pagmamahal na handa mong ibigay ng buong buo para sakanya. Kung pwede nga lang bang makaabot na yang boses at kanta mo sa langit marahil ay nabuhay mo ulit siya. Nabuhay mo yung pagmamahal na meron siya para sayo. Kelangan ko na lang siguro talagang tanggapin na sa tuwing mapapakinggan ko ang mga kantang iniaalay mo para sakanya ay kelangan kong takpan ang aking mga mata at ang aking tenga para diko makita kung gaano mo siya pinagmamasdan, kung gaano mo kagustong mapakinggan niya ang bawat letra,titik at kahulugan ng iyong kanta, para mas malaman niya kung gaano mo siya minamahal. Talo ako. Talong talo ako. Dahil hindi ko kayang pilitin kang mahalin ako pabalik. Katulad ng paghiling mong siya ay bumalik.

It was nothing. 

Nagkita ulit tayo. I was looking for the same eyes na nakita ko noon. Tinitigan kita, i was looking for the same stare, the same feeling na nakita ko sa mga mata mo noon, but i found nothing. Theres nothing. Haha. There was nothing i should expect then, ang laking sampal nun sakin. Haha. I was really expecting something though. Something that you would also feel the same way just like before, but i guess time removes everything then, even the tiniest feeling i think you atleast have for me. Am i assuming. I hope not. I am praying that i may be also over with this feeling coz im already tired waiting over and over again for a stupid idea that you could fell inlove with me soon, just like i do with you. I fall hard. Ang hirap tumayo ulit. Distancce and time may remove this feeling soon. I hope so. I still love you, but loving is not owning thats why i need to let you go.